[ Family ] Open Question : Is it wrong to not feel happy that my mom is getting out of jail?

So this is hard to describe but long story short, about 2 years ago my mother walked out on my family. It started before that but that's when she walked out on us. She abandoned us and went missing for a full week before anyone could find her. After that she refused to come home. We later learned that she had gotten into doing and selling drugs. She abandoned me, my very young sisters, my brother and my father. Since my father works full time that means instead of going to college like I was going to, I instead was volunteered to stay home and babysit my sisters and do the housework. We live in the woods 8 miles from any town and I can't drive so i can't get a job. For the past 2 years I've had no income, I've been almost completely a shut in, and due to my constant obligation to care for my young sisters. I've lost nearly all my friends because I can't hang out or do anything with them. I know this sounds like whiney bullshit but believe me when I say over this time I have tried every possible angle to try and fix it. Anyway so about 8-9 months ago my mom was caught "with intent to distribute" or something. So for that amount of time she has been in jail. Sometimes she calls to talk to my sisters but I don't really want to talk to her. She's getting out in 14 days though and not only am I not happy about it, every time I think about it I get anxious. I don't feel anything more for her. Is it wrong of me to not feel happy. Not feel more toward her? I don't know how to feel

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